So I haven’t posted in quite a while and the past few months have been extremely difficult for me with many revelations and a ton of highs and lows. I can say the largest lesson I have learned is that I didn’t die with my husband. I have realized that over the past two and a half years I have literally become someone else, and someone I have not been entirely proud of. I have hurt people I love, haven’t been the best role model for my children, and really have lost myself entirely. Yet, without going through all that, I would not have made it to where I am today. I finally see things more clearly. I finally believe I have a future and I can make it what I want it to be.
I have enrolled in school. Made many positive changes with the people I was allowing in my life and really working towards a better me. I have finally realized I need to stop hoping for someone to save me and save myself. I have stopped being angry for losing my husband and have been reminded of the blessings that I still have in front of me. My children who have always been my world and yet somehow lost my focus. I may have lost two and a half years but hopefully have gained a future of gratitude for the life I still have. As well as accepting that these rough times we go through really truly do set us up to be stronger individuals who can create the path we lead. I am starting 2021 on a positive note, I am feeling good! And you know what, for once it is not because of someone else. I am feeling good about me. My life, my amazing boys, the true friends that are around me, and the future I am in control of. Now, that is a great feeling! Happy New Year everyone!! God bless.
Surviving his Overdose 